Well, I haven't posted here in a while

it's because I'm going through all this internal strife, much of what doesn't make very much sense and I can't tell anyone, so I've been posting in my secret blog which no one can read.

Things are going well.

I slept all day until 7:30, and Jason was upset because he didn't know what happened to me.  I was upset because I slept way too long but my mom seemed happy and productive.

Made plans for Jason to meet my brother and sister-in-law.  I'm really rather nervous, since I value all of their opinions on each other.

Really just wanting tonight to knit my heart out.

Really delving into the meaning of prayer. If you look at the etymology of the word prayer in the English language, you find it means to desperately ask.  Then why when God prays, does he make command statements?  Give us this day our daily bread.  Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sinned against us.

I really also want to get into job searching tonight because I'm not going to be able to sleep.

Looked up the word prayer in Greek, i.e. in the new testament, and it means to exchange wishes. We tell the Lord Jesus our wishes and God tells us His.  How sweet and intimate!  We share the desires of our heart and he shares the desires of His.  Thank you Lord Jesus.