Goal #2, Part 4

When I made goal #2, I was feeling betrayed by UTA for making classes so difficult that I couldn't pass them.  I felt like the professor was singling me out for failure, because I am a nontraditional student and I didn't trust her at all.  I felt like she didn't want me there, and that totally threw off my game.  I forgive her and all, but it was the worst feeling for my first class. 

I accidentally used the wrong poem on my first essay, but I thought that my second essay was pretty good, but I got the same grade as my first essay.  Before these essays I missed class for a week to go to the mental hospital.  It was frustrating, to say the least.  She counted off for the missed work and absences, which I totally understand. 

I got a bad start, but in my other classes there was no problems, and I made ok grades. 

So I was getting over educational heartbreak and a lot of other emotions as I wrote these goals.  But I still feel like I should keep them.  It's like I've been looking at the options so long that neither one make sense.  Should I do this or that?  Maybe it's because I've been looking at finishing or not finishing as DUMB goals or even GROW goals, but not SMART goals. 


Who?  Me and students and professors and the rest of our lives...
What? Finishing my degree. 
When?  Next semester, and in the summer, morning classes
Where? at UTA
How?through fin aid, by a car hopefully, through registering

I just don't want to go crazy.  I feel it coming on, insanity, in the back of my mind. 

I keep thinking what I will do after graduation will be different, but almost the same as what I do if I stop now.  I keep thinking about my energy and how that all will affect me, the school, my future. 

I'm worried that I will change, as a person.  Become more grumpy, or mean or nicer or what. 

Wondering what my secretary degree is worth.