Writing and Doctors.

Hey Bloggerverse!  I'm writing again, hopefully consistently.  I was going to try to create an upgraded version of this blog on WordPress, when I read a couple of the sample blogs and I realized that I suck too much to be on WordPress and that I need to be in a safe space when I write and that's on Blogger.

I want to write and about things I know and love, but I don't want to write because exposing yourself to the world is hard. Ever read that book about Asher Lev? Yeah, that's one classic you'll not want to miss because when you read it you'll be wrecked for creative pursuits for life.

And I don't want to write because lately, I've just been talking to myself, and this is what writing here feels like, talking to myself.  You can tell the difference because when you're talking to someone else, you get feedback from outside, but when you're talking to yourself, you can't really hear anything, like that rushing noise you hear when you press your hands over your ears.   I feel like I've introverted myself for and because of my jobs and I don't know that I want to turn inside out yet.  It's really hard to turn inside out, sometimes.  You have to trust someone and they have to know you.
You've got all this ugliness you didn't want anyone to see and all this gold you've hoarded.

Anyway, some of you might relate.  The swirlyness of the above paragraph is making me think too much.

Went to the doctor, today. John Peter Smith Hospital in Arlington, TX on Arkansas Lane.  I had a horrible pap smear.  First they weren't ready with the materials, and there were three people in the room, a student, the doctor and the nurse, and it was just uncomfortable.  I guess most women don't look forward to pap smears.  I just wish she had introduced the student to me, and had asked all the questions before putting me into the paper gown and having me be all uncomfortable.  It really prepares me to try and make the clients at the Animal Clinic I work at be more comfortable.  I want them to think good things when they visit and not be outweighed by the negatives.