Beginning and Ending with and in Christ

So today is a lazy Sunday for me.  I have my Daily Do List and the Lord Jesus. 

I really wanted to go to the Pumpkin Patch and take fall pictures, but my mom is not having any of it.  Maybe I'll try her in the afternoon when she's more comfortable. 

Guiltily, made some coffee.  I try to avoid caffeine on most occasions, but I figured a little in the morning wouldn't hurt my sleep.  It might get my cells up and jumping.  I want to try the mushroom coffee, coffee from mushrooms.  I don't know if has caffeine or what, but it looks different and I think I'd like it. 

Had to do some laundry, and check my gmail. 

I'm falling to pieces over the purple rugs West Elm has.  I need a purple area rug like mad for my room with Winter around the corner and my feet starting to freeze unless I put socks on.  They are so expensive.  I'm saving for a new mattress first.  I've had this one mattress for 17 years and there's a dip in the side where I sleep.  Bad for the back, you know.

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I'm drinking my second cup of coffee, and getting the jitters.  The going down, coming off the first cup anxiety and the second rup energy.  A whole bunch of angry, anxiety energy, my body fighting with itself. 

I've been sleeping exactly the correct amount.  I hope you all have been, too.  I feel like God has blessed me with this because I've been praying for it for 14 years. 

I'm not really hungry at all though, which is good because I don't have to eat as much to feel full.  I've gone down a whole pant size, and can wear 14's now from 16. I had to get rid of two pairs of pants because they were too big. 

I don't really have the motivation to do anything big right now, so I'm sipping my coffee and writing this blog. 

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I'm caving.  I sort of made a budget. and I didn't put anything there for extra stuff just business, like transportation, meals, paying of huge amount of debt.  But nothing in there for extra clothes or special pins from Teeturtle.  So I'll have to go in and let myself get something special for winter. And I want to re-connect with my education, strangely enough, so I'm getting a long-sleeved Texas State Shirt.  I have a UTA pullover, already. 

Draw me dear Lord.  Draw me, today.  From my neighbor's loud gardening outside my window, dear Lord, Draw me away.