Life in the day

Binge watched Seth McFarland's funnies on YouTube after I woke up after sleeping for pretty much 24 hours with a 6 hour break in the middle.  Roughly nostalgic with a touch of finality.  A sense of impending ending.

 Missed an interview, but it wasn't even near me, so it's not so surprising.  I was thinking of trying to get a Skype interview, but that didn't even make it to the launch pad.  I really wanted the job, too, but it turned out to be only part time and I won't take none of that, son.  

Feeling so lonely lately.  I mean my mom's here, but she's not a friend or anything.  I keep thinking about work and mentally waking up in a panic, thinking how wrecked I'm going to be going since I'm way past the expiration date, but really there's nothing else to do BUT show up.  I have to have the monies for my student loan.  So.  You see.  $300 and still paying back my mom about $1,300, maybe more. It makes for bad blood, owing relatives, so I just bought a cute turtle introvert pin on TeeTurtle for $8.00, which shows how bad I'm worried about paying my mom back.  I need to write a budget.  But I keep holding out for getting a full time job and starting the whole thing with a budget, fully fitted out with tithing, wants and paying back loans.  Yet I don't have very much faith in the process.  I've slain Subway so much in my heart I can barely look at it without tears in my eyes.  Yet look I do.  

Before feeling lonely, and binge-watching McFarland, I found myself mesmerized by IT.  Yes, I used to be scared of scary movies because I thought TV and movies were real.  Now I'm amused and cheered by the thrill of the scare.  Well, that was me in my twenties.  Now I'm kind of just bored with everything.  Slightly disturbed by the macabre.  A cranky old lady who lives alone.  

Thanks for listening bloggerverse, 

I've already typed too much, 

Megan Out.