Jesus Life, Money Life, Mom Life,

I'm staying up tonight.  If I sleep later than 12, I'm just not going to try to sleep at night because I know it'll be ridiculous.  I have so much work to catch up on.

I slept in til 3 today and I still can't figure out how to wake up in the mornings.  I listened to my alarm go off and listened to my mom come home, half-awake, but didn't get up until a few hours later.  

I woke up all grumpy and the minute I sat at my desk to have a morning time with the Lord Jesus, everything turned around. But the thing is, I didn't want it to turn around, I wanted to deal with my dirtiness, my muddiness and my death before God.  So I was very frustrated that He turned everything around.  The Lord has His great doings and His turning personality and I have my small doings, and my coming to the Lord, dirty personality.  He says, I want to cleanse You, and I say, I want to stay in my dirtiness a while,  I just thank the Lord Jesus that He is hurrying me to realize that I can't waste my time.  I have to be one who is redeeming the time according to His will and His way.

I have $6.00 in cash, and $16.42 in Paypal, that I can redeem by a check. I'm going to wait until I make at least $50.00 to redeem it, because any amounts before that seem a waste of paper.

My mom gets home tired and is probably going to the grocery store tonight.  I asked her to get lentils, soymilk and frozen peaches. I also gave her a coupon for soap. We need more Dove soap, even though she has has a hidden stache, I think.  I could ask her, but relations between me and my mom have been breaking down as of late.  The conversation doesn't flow like it should, anymore. I'm going to work on it.  Sometimes it's difficult to talk to her because she can't hear very well and asks, "What?" in a loud voice.  It's kind of funny.  I know she's getting older and I have to be appreciative of this fact.